Bitch was never
supportive of anything I ever wanted to do. I've always wanted to
write. From the days when my mom would check out jesse stuart books
from the book mobile till the days that I am older, I have always
wanted to be a published author. All I ever heard was shit like
“writing is the lazy man's way to success. You will never amount to
anything. You will never be a writer. The songs you write are
stupid. The poetry you write makes no sense. You are a loser.”
Well you know what? Fuck
you bitch! The day you die, if i'm still living, I will drink a 12
pack of bud light in your memory. You are a vain, arrogant cunt and
i'm damn glad you aren't in my life anymore. I will drink that beer
out of happiness and celebration, not because I feel sorry for your
passing, but because I (as well as the many others you have been
with) will be glad to know that you will not be psychologically
annoying any more men in this world.
I always knew your mom
was a psycho and that you were always on your way to filling your
foot steps. Filling her shoes is one thing that I totally agree that
you've done well with. Ask Charlie, Jeb, Gary, or any others you've
married and/or slept with. Charlie knows the truth behind my son's
attack as a child.
There I was, working as a
greeter at Visions Night Club in Covington. Social Services in Grant
County calls me to tell me that I need to get to your house because
my son needs me. One week before his first birthday. I get there to
find the state police vehicle in the driveway. Trooper Mike Kelly
was there.
I go inside to find my
son beat the hell up. Finger marks around his neck, cigarette burns
on his chest, stripes around his torso, and his “private” area so
tender, red, and swollen that it didn't even look like human body
parts. Trooper Kelly had me to hold him while he took pictures of
all the injuries. I go inside to where his crib was, teeth marks
along the top of the crib from teething is one thing, but all the way
around the top of the crib? What? Did you starve him to death too?
You played innocent,
charlie got arrested for child abuse, you should have been arrested
for no less than child endangerment. We took him to the hospital to
make sure there were no permanent injuries. The doctor's were so
mad. I was so mad. At the time I believed that it was all Charlie.
After time, I realized it wasn't Charlie at all. For years I couldn't go
through a checkout line with a female cashier because anytime a girl
spoke to me, My son would go into fits. He was afraid of them for some
reason. Now I know why. YOU were the one that abused him. How dare
you! If charges could be filed today, I would so do it.
I got emergency custody
and later was awarded full custody of my son. The judge even ruled
that if you wish to have visitation, that you would have to file a
motion in Circuit court and explain why you should get to visit with
him. Two Christmases and one birthday you showed up in 18 years of
his life. But I'm the sorry one. Yeah, right.
I have a great son now.
I never tried one time to sway his thoughts or feelings for you in
all the time of him growing up. I figured some day he would learn on
his own what an evil cunt you were and still are.
Yeah, when I got him we
moved a few hundred miles away, yeah you could have visited more
often. I guess he never meant enough to you to take the trouble out
to go see him though.
We still got by, we still
made it, and I have raised a fine young man that you had NOTHING to
do with his upbringing. Yeah, fuck you!
We eventually moved back
in the area. Yeah you bought us a junky trailer in the worst trailer
park that Covington has to offer and we made it home the best we
could. The roaches, termites, and rotted floors were just another
challenge that we faced head on and eventually lost the war with. Yet
it was a stepping stone and we eventually moved on.
During the times my son
got to see you and spend some time with you. To this day he wonders
how come I ever married you. You're a titless wonder miss nipples.
Still wearing your training bra? 50 years old and still in a
trainer. Wow! With all the money you've made over the years and the
child support that was so cheap, I would have thought you could've
afforded a set of tits by now, I guess I was wrong there too huh?
I remember the night we
finally got to bring him home from the hospital, he had a heart
murmur so they kept him a day longer than they did you. They
probably wanted you out of there because you are such a bitch. The
same night that we brought him home, he cried for his middle of the
night feeding and diaper change. I had gotten home from work an hour
or two earlier and you got up to feed and change him. I fell asleep
glad to know that we had a son and you were doing your first night
time duties as a new mom.
I awoke to “Hold your
goddamn little legs still you little bastard!”
Really? That's how you
feel about our new son? I got up and took him from you and said
“Don't you ever touch my son again!” “From now on I will
change his diapers, I will feed him, I will bathe and do whatever he
needs. What was your reply? “I'm tired of you being like a ray of
sunshine up his ass anyway! He always smiles around you and all he
does around me is cry.”
Remember that you bitch?
I can't help but think that if you had gotten the full custody of him
that he would have been dead by now or turned into a sissy. Why?
Cause you are an overbearing cunt that has no patience with babies
(not even your own), and you would probably bitch out a parapalegic
for not being able to keep up with you walking into a restaurant.
Yeah, that's truly the kind of ass that you are.
I've got lots of awesome
memories of his growing up that you will never know. You will never
deserve to know. As a mother, you are not worth the mention but I
mention you because of your attitude, because of your arrogance, and
because not me or anyone else like you.
My son has told me often
that he hates you. His feelings for you are what you gave him. Not
me. Remember, I wanted him to be able to fairly form his own opinion
of you in his own time. He did so and that was all you.
Granted, I've made
mistakes along the road of this life. I am only human. You are
sub-human. Sub Human Ignorant Trig. S.H.I.T. That's how I see you
now. That's how I will see you till the day I die.
Thank you for such an
enlightening knowledge of your ignorance. Your mom, you, and your
sister Patti are about as judgemental and stupid as they come.
Judgemental or mental? Hmmmm. No wonder Debbie and Gary has nothing
to do with you. I would have ran as far as I could get from you as
well. Oh yeah, I did that but for some stupid reason came back. I
worked my butt off for another 5 years at wolf steel before getting
laid off for the economic bottoming out in manufacturing. About the
time I was going back to work, I had according to doctors, between 5
and 7 mini strokes and was lucky that I wasn't paralyzed or dead. My
son wouldn't let me go back to work for a very long time.
Now that I feel like I
can go back to work, he is still very restrictive on what he will
allow me to work at. I would be the same with my father if put in
that position. Sorry ass? No, just sorry that we ever made a second
or third try in our marriage. Not sorry that I ever met you, because
I have a helluva son out our union. I am sorry that I ever started
talking to you again after all these years. We were much better off
without you in our lives. I feel very glad to finally get this off of
my chest too. Thank you bitch. My mom, dad, brother, sister,
friends, and now my son all agree. You are a psycho and were are
glad to be rid of you.
This starts a new chapter
in our lives now and I am very glad to see it. This is a time of
opportunity, of hope, of a new future. Why? Because you are no longer
in it in any way. Sure, we're homeless right now, but that gives a
new motivation. Tennessee? Texas? Florida? Maybe even Louisiana, I
don't care where we end up. Just knowing that we are there without
you in our lives to demoralize and belittle our happiness means so
much to me.
You confided in me the
other day and said that you are so afraid that you will end up like
your mother. Well, be afraid no longer, you are dead on!
David my son, Anna my high school sweetheart and first love, and of course writing, are my first three loves and always will be.
I don't know whether to
call this a short story or an open letter to a bitch. Either is pretty good.
Could it be chapter 1? Only time will tell.
Could it be chapter 1? Only time will tell.